I am scared of you making me happy. I am afraid that in such short time that you are making me so happy, I’ll get used to it. That eventually I’ll stop making myself happy. I don’t want to wake up one day and realise I was so used to your pampering, your care, your love, that you somehow became so important to me that now when you are not here, I can’t do anything on my own. I can’t be happy. I know you won’t stay. At least not forever. When you are gone how will I get over from receiving so much of love and attention to absolutely nothing?

Maybe what they say is true. Maybe I don’t need to give so quickly. Maybe I need to stop loving passionately. But I don’t know how to love without passion. So maybe I shouldn’t love you. Maybe I need to be careful with you, but sometimes I can’t.

Yes, I need breaks from you. To remind myself that I have a different life. To remind myself that you won’t stay forever. To nourish the relationship I have with myself. To realise I am happy even without you.

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  1. This is so relatable dudeee… I don’t know how can you express this feeling so beautifully. When I feel like this way I so wish I had words to express what I’m feeling. And now thanks to you now I actually do 😘❤️

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  2. This is a common insignia that when we get happiness we just get afraid of it, like if it’s not there tomorrow,, I think by doing that we are limiting ourselves,, living in Present and today let us enjoy everything at full whatever life offers us,,

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