Beauty of love

How do you know when you’re in love?

Maybe you know it when you close your eyes and you smile because you see his face.. his adorable face.. his soft lips.. his lovely eyes.. you also feel his kind, beautiful heart and feel extremely grateful for every single moment you’ve shared together

Maybe you know it when your heart aches when you see him cry, when you want to do everything you can to make his pain go away but you cannot do anything right now.. so you offer him hope.. and you pray for him with all your heart.. and sometimes just sit with him and share the pain

Maybe you know it when he cares for you genuinely and all you can do is feel grateful for his presence, for his love

Maybe you know it when after a longgg tiresome day, all you want to do is hear his voice and talk to him, be in his arms and then somehow everything seems to be okay..

Maybe you know it when he supports you and encourages you in such a way that you feel more of yourself when you are with him.. there comes this time when you actually start loving yourself more because you are in love with him.. you slowly start becoming a better person and growing in love

Maybe you know it when you realise his happiness matters the most.. when you both start making small sacrifices to see each other happy.. like his happiness is related to yours.. when seeing him happy makes you forget everything.. it’s almost as if world is moving in slow motion and you feel and enjoy the moment you both are together and happy.. and you just want to pause this time.. forever..

♥️

when i met you for the first time

i had no idea you’d become my world someday

but i do remember wondering.. how beautiful it would be to be loved by someone like you…💞

The One

I miss you. I haven’t met you yet but I miss you. Sometimes I wonder where can I find you – online? In the local cafe? In shopping mall? Or on a random street? Or through a friend? Possibilities are endless…

I don’t want you to complete me or to fill in my loneliness void. No, I don’t even want you to make me happy…. I have realised I can do all these things by myself. And believe me I am doing all this as good as I can… But sometimes…. I need you. Is it wrong to admit that I need love?

I see those happy couples on insta and when I read their captions I can literally feel their love for each other. That makes me wonder when will I get to love someone like this… When will someone love me like this… Is it wrong to admit that I need love?

Yesterday I was listening to a romantic song. The lyrics felt like you are speaking to me and I’m calling out to you… Sometimes it feels like you are here somewhere.. talking to me through songs and stories.. but why can’t I see you yet?

Love is something that can’t be rushed, they say. But I am done waiting. And you know I’m impatient as hell..

I don’t think you’ll be perfect in every way… But you’ll be right for me and that’s what matters… I am not the type of girl who believes in fairy tales and happy endings… But I know I can have someone whom I can live happily with. Someone who can support my growth and nourish me with love.

Will you meet me soon?


Don’t we all feel like this at times?

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I am scared of you making me happy. I am afraid that in such short time that you are making me so happy, I’ll get used to it. That eventually I’ll stop making myself happy. I don’t want to wake up one day and realise I was so used to your pampering, your care, your love, that you somehow became so important to me that now when you are not here, I can’t do anything on my own. I can’t be happy. I know you won’t stay. At least not forever. When you are gone how will I get over from receiving so much of love and attention to absolutely nothing?

Maybe what they say is true. Maybe I don’t need to give so quickly. Maybe I need to stop loving passionately. But I don’t know how to love without passion. So maybe I shouldn’t love you. Maybe I need to be careful with you, but sometimes I can’t.

Yes, I need breaks from you. To remind myself that I have a different life. To remind myself that you won’t stay forever. To nourish the relationship I have with myself. To realise I am happy even without you.

Grow together

If we are in a relationship, I don’t expect you to be the same you were when we met. I want you to grow with me. Life throws challenges at us, if we want to do better, we’ve to become better and grow together.

After some years…we may not be the same we are now. But let’s hope, we become a better and happier and more successful couple than we are now.

My first crush

Okay, so it’s just like other normal “first” crushes… I got butterflies in my stomach when he looked at me, my heart leaped with joy when I knew he was coming to the party we were going, I was nervous when he came to talk to me, I dressed up like I was going on a date when going to meet the group of friends where he’d be too…. I also made some stupid mistakes in front of him and gave him the opportunity to laugh at me!! But that was in a good way (at least I like to think so!)

He was the coolest guy in our class, in highschool. Every single girl would be willing to date him, you know the cutest guy in class who charms everyone.. Yep! He was that!

Every love song reminded me of him.. esp the “pehla nasha” and “kuch kuch hota hai…”

That was crazy! When you are small you always compare your love story with those shown in movies..

He actually was like the hero in movies… He talked sweetly, had a great group of friends, played cricket, good at sports and had girls always around him. I still remember all the girls from our class used to cheer for him on the Sports Day. (and of course he used to win..)

He actually wasn’t my type at all! I was the studious one.. at least in school 😅.. teachers favorite, not so good at sports, browsing library all the time, not so actively talking to boys… You get the idea.

But he did talk to me! I gave him notes when he missed classes due to his cricket tournaments.. we used to exchange normal hi-hello as I came to my desk everyday (he always sat behind me or just in front of me)

I remember looking at him when anyone cracked a joke in class…. It was so good to see him laugh!

Then he used to be surrounded by girls during lunch time and I was jealous!😜

At that time I didn’t have Instagram to send me the quote “Stop having relationship problems with someone you’re not in relationship with”😂

I was class monitor at that time. Teacher assigned me the task of writing down names of students who were talking during lectures (you know… The most boring job in the world!)

One day, I had to write his name too! (Yes, unwillingly)

During lunch break, I was sitting on my desk and doing my homework… When he came and sat next to me!

“Hi Vru!” He said in his sweet voice

I was so nervous!!! I slowly looked at him.. he was flashing me his most charming smile

I pulled away quickly. Trying hardddd not to blush… I asked him “hey! What’s up?”

I was grinning ear to ear

“I heard you wrote my name as well… Can you please not tell my name? I was just asking Priya about the homework last week”

“I can’t” I said meekly

“Alright then,” he said with a grin

“I won’t get up until you erase my name”

Whattttt???

“If that’s the case, I’ll never ever erase your name… Sit next to me forever” I SCREAMED!

In my mind.. of course!

But I needed to get out of my beautiful dreamland and answer him now..

Guess what?

I did as he said! I know…. It was wrong.. but I couldn’t help it… It wasn’t that important anyway… But you know… Crushes have an unfair advantage!😉

That’s all!

We never got past that seeing eachother-and-smiling-like-a-idiot phase.

But that’s also beautiful.. some things aren’t meant to end (so they never start) they just leave a imprint in your memory to be remembered forever…..

Things that happen when your bff gets engaged

So this is the thing about best friends – They are meant for each other. They are soulmates. They are there for each other when no one was. They are comfortable with each other and can be their craziest, weirdest self in front of each other. Everything goes well until……. One of them gets engaged!

Recently my bff got engaged.

And I was like…..

“Yeah okay…. She’s engaged, but we will still be there for each other. Our bond will be as good as it was.” At least that’s what I told myself.

Then reality hits hard.

When you plan to hangout with your bestie she replies – “Hey, I’m so sorry I can’t come. I’m on a date! I’ll tell you how it goes, okay bye!”

And you’re like – “Omg! This is happening for 7 times in a row now. This is the exact same person who called me when she forgot her Hall ticket on the examination day, when she got dumped by her boyfriend last year, when she is having arguments with her parents,…. Every single time I was there for her! I was her go-to person! Now you have to take her appointment to meet her????”

Earlier when you guys met, the topics would be planning trips, gossips, sharing progress about the projects we’re working on, interesting stuff you did this week and so on…

Now when you hangout – she talks about her boyfriend, and college and her boyfriend and the food and her boyfriend and his interests and… If nothing else… She calls him and they start talking

That’s one of those times when you look at her and think about how can you kill her….. (Just kidding… But not kidding :p)

Then comes a time when she tells you to click her pics…. With her boyfriend!

You shot her a mean look, which she ignores. As you click the pic, in your mind you are hitting her boyfriend for taking your place in her pics.

Then sometimes she drags you to buy gifts for him, you know the romantic cheesy stuff…

You actually don’t do anything, just try to control your urge to sleep and watch her as she selects gifts… And wonder what’s wrong with her!

When they have fights, you are the one who has to stay up whole night analysing the situation and figure out who’s wrong and in the end convince her that she deserves a better guy… :p but she doesn’t listen to you… As always… sigh*

When they get back together…it all starts again!

Ugh!!!

Then you start getting thoughts like ” I am the only one who’s left behind.. literally everyone around me is engaged (just your bestie, but you know she’s your world) Should I date Amit? I know he likes me.. but he’s too clingy… Then Vinay? No.. he’s good but he’s always busy! Umm… Rahul? Yeah.. he’s been my crush for a long time. But I don’t think we get along well, we are from totally different worlds! Besides he moved out of the city last year. How can I show her how it feels when she does all this torture to me when my boyfriend isn’t even in the city! Aahhhhh! It feels like love triangle. Except me and my best friend love each other and her boyfriend is messing around!😂”

*phone buzzes

Oh… A text from her –

“We broke up”

How I really feel – 😀

What I show – 😥


So this was a fun write up I came up with! We have to do research this year in psychology and me and my friends were discussing about it and this came up!

How best friends behave when one of them gets engaged and the other person is left behind.

Like seriously, when you are the center of someone’s world and you feel good about it and then suddenly someone else comes up and takes your place just like that!

Research toh banta hai! :p

What do you think guys? I’m sure you must’ve been in this situation at some point. How did you feel? What did you do?

Share in the comments below!

When you are used to…

When you are used to getting rude remarks

Kindness seems like bliss

When you are used to hear him say “Oh I love you so much! Why do you always make me angry?”

It feels good when someone says “I am sorry, I was wrong. I won’t do that again. Please forgive me honey”

When you have experienced him insulting you in front of your friends,

It feels warm when someone gives you heartfelt praise in front of your friends

When you are used to him saying “This can’t work between us, I am done!”

It feels nice when someone says “I’m here to stay”

When you are used to him make you feel uncomfortable about your true self

You feel so happy when someone truly understands you and accepts you, just as you are

When you are used to hear him say “You will never be someone I deserve.. you are imperfect”

Your heart overflows with love when someone says “no one has felt you the way I have…”❤️

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