When you are just starting out, there is this constant struggle to weather be satisfied with what you have or accept the fact that you want something more… Much more.
In the begining when we start our journey, our career, we have high expectations from ourselves. I do! I am satisfied and kinda okay with where I am right now but at the same time I also know that this is not the same place I want to be 5 years from now.
This is actually what motivates me. What better motivation than the fact that you are not where you want to be!
I struggle with being satisfied these days. I know we should be satisfied with where we are at any point in journey, but its just a little harder in the beginning.
You feel like you have the control over your life but at the same time it’s not complete control since you are just starting out. So during this phase you are mostly dissatisfied with yourself.
But then again, you know you have to be satisfied or else you will just keep on accumulating wealth and “stuff” and you nothing will be able to satisfy you in the end.
I come from a culture where being passionate or wanting more is not considered good. We are taught to be satisfied with what we have and also at the same time encouraged to go for what we want.
Sometimes the balance between being satisfied and wanting more is just not there. On some days I just want to pause time and enjoy this moment and wish this would last forever. On some days I want to fast forward everything and see myself 5 years later living the kinda life I have envisioned for myself.
Striking balance between these two is really hard. But I am trying.
Sometimes I just engage myself in work and try to distract myself from all these thoughts. Just like I am going to do right now. 😉