When you are just starting out, there is this constant struggle to weather be satisfied with what you have or accept the fact that you want something more… Much more.
In the begining when we start our journey, our career, we have high expectations from ourselves. I do! I am satisfied and kinda okay with where I am right now but at the same time I also know that this is not the same place I want to be 5 years from now.
This is actually what motivates me. What better motivation than the fact that you are not where you want to be!
I struggle with being satisfied these days. I know we should be satisfied with where we are at any point in journey, but its just a little harder in the beginning.
You feel like you have the control over your life but at the same time it’s not complete control since you are just starting out. So during this phase you are mostly dissatisfied with yourself.
But then again, you know you have to be satisfied or else you will just keep on accumulating wealth and “stuff” and you nothing will be able to satisfy you in the end.
I come from a culture where being passionate or wanting more is not considered good. We are taught to be satisfied with what we have and also at the same time encouraged to go for what we want.
Sometimes the balance between being satisfied and wanting more is just not there. On some days I just want to pause time and enjoy this moment and wish this would last forever. On some days I want to fast forward everything and see myself 5 years later living the kinda life I have envisioned for myself.
Striking balance between these two is really hard. But I am trying.
Sometimes I just engage myself in work and try to distract myself from all these thoughts. Just like I am going to do right now. 😉
Vrunda Chauk 
Ah Yes Vrunda To Be Totally Focused on the
Task At Hand in Flow Sweet Spot Tween Apathy
And Anxiety Where There Is No Future Or Past
To Worry About Now
Just Totally Engaged
In The Present Now
Always Hungry For
More Complexity
Yet What is Come
Now Is Truly Enough
So Far With More To Come
To Stimulate Mind
And Body Balance
Yes In Flow
Doing
My Best this
Way For me
i Let the Results
of What i Do Speak
When They Are Ready With
Really No Real Goals yet of Course
Obviously Being Financially Independent
Has a Lot to Do With Having This Kind of Freedom
to Pursue Human Potentials No Employer or Target
Audience Controls Yet It’s True i Always Stay Satisfied
When i Balance Unless i Start Worrying About Something
i Don’t Have i Need to Add to the Pie of Life Again i Just Let
It All Come Free Yet of Course i am Fortunate Enough to Feel
Like All
Is Enough
As Long As My
Mind And Body Soul
In Balance is Evolving More now
Evolving More Now Again Not Concerned
With Any Destination As i Feel i Am Arrived
Whole As Human No Matter Where And What i Do Next..:)
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I enjoyed your post. With ambition can come disgust with your current circumstances. You might think that you will not be happy until you receive more. There is a way though to be content with what you have now and still have something to do and to achieve each day.
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Yess Michael. I am trying to keep up the balance between both emotions… Its difficult though… But anyway.. thank you so much for reading and sharing your thoughts ❤️❤️❤️🙏
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