When did you realise you are a grown up?

I mean….my mom always makes sure to remind me that I am a grown up whenever I do anything dumb. But other than that, there are a few moments that actually made me realise that….. holy crap! I am growing up! (nervous squeak)

– Pressure to get a good job and earn money. This is the moment when we realise that everything we did in our life…. From schooling till college and degree was for this moment. Getting PAID. When I frantically started worrying about my future and started looking for jobs that was the moment I realise – holy crap! I am a grown up now.

– Being sincere about your job and working your ass off every day to keep that job. After you get a job you feel relaxed like – Hush! I got a job! Finally!! But then….. (wicked laugh) You realise this was just the first step in your journey.. the real struggle is to keep the job. After a few months you cannot believe you were so escalated and thrilled to get this job because now, you have to work your ass off to keep it.

– Taking Responsibilities. Okay here’s the thing – I didn’t sign up for this. I don’t know why do I have to deal with all these responsibilities with little or no help because… Now I am a grown up. And I’m there just like – hello, excuse me, you don’t know me, I cannot solve mathematical equations without my dad’s help. The only time when I have ever been held responsible was the time when I messed up something. How do you expect me to take responsibility of important things? When did I grow up? Where is the damn warning?! Is there any manual that can help…?

The funny thing with responsibility is that you always need to be cautious about something and make sure everything happens according to the plan… There is this constant fear in your mind that says “something will go wrong” and you have make sure that it doesn’t. Because if something goes wrong all the blame is going to be on you. Not on the person who actually messed up but on you just coz you were responsible.

No sir, sorry. I didn’t sign up for this.

Tbh I feel like most of adult life is showing up one day after the another and pushing yourself to get things done all while trying to figure out what you are doing and where you want to be.

Or maybe you want to figure out what to have for tonight’s dinner.. that works too!